I want to tell you a story.
A story about a moment in my life when everything became clear.
It was a cold evening in December, just a week before Christmas. I'd been particularly stressed that month, working in a busy shop in a big city over the holiday season, anxiety and overwhelm had taken over and I was feeling tearful and exhausted.
I went to a yoga class at the studio where I go at Leeds Dock. One of my favourite teachers, Colette, was leaving for India a few weeks later and was doing a free class as a way to say goodbye. It was extremely busy, our yoga mats packed tightly together as we were careful not to hit our neighbour as we transitioned through the poses. As the class went on, we had the chance to work with partners and get to know some of the others there. This felt really good as we helped each other practice handstands and laughed together as we lost our balance. The sense of community the teacher brought to the class was wonderful. The postures that we practised were so rejuvenating and I could feel my stress levels decreasing as the class went on.
After 90 minutes I was exhausted, but in a good way this time. I'd worked hard, tried some new poses and was definitely ready for savasana at the end.
As we lay on our mats, Colette read out a paragraph to us about playing it small and why we do it. It resonated so much with me, i'd been doing this most of my life. I'd set up my business 2 years before, but rarely promoted it and instead continued to work in an unfulfilling job because it was safe. Being visible was my greatest fear, who was I to believe in myself and aim for something bigger, but as I lay on my mat in tears listening to my teacher telling us that it's much better to stop playing small and to believe in ourselves, something happened. I finally knew that I had to change things, to follow my dreams and stop settling for less. I'd studied hard for many years and had lots to share, but didn't have the confidence to take that further. Until now.
When the class was finished, I gave my teacher a big hug and told her that I was quitting my job. I didn't know how, but I knew something was going to change. I walked through the city back to the train station feeling completely different to when I walked into the studio just a few hours before.
Within two months, i'd left my job, began my dream job working for an organic skincare school and began building a successful business.
All it took was one moment, one decision, one amazing teacher to say what I needed to hear.
Sometimes these moments happen, sometimes it's on the yoga mat, sometimes not, but I always feel like they happen at the perfect time for the perfect reason.
So in the spirit of being visible, here I am.
I'm not perfect, I don't have all the answers, but I love to connect with others and make a difference in any way I can, and sometimes that's the most important things you can do for another person.